Saturday, January 29, 2011

restoring Hope.

I'm sitting out on my back porch in the quickly fading evening light, desperately trying to soak up the last of this beautiful spring-like day. Don't get me wrong - I love winter. I love snow and all of the warm and cozy things that accompany it, but I do treasure these rare warm mid-winter days.

There is something incredibly pleasant about spending a lazy Saturday afternoon in solitude. Finishing laundry and tidying your room and reading on the porch with a glass of cherry limeade and finding that, in the midst of it all, that the alone-ness that you once found stifling is now what feeds your soul. Perhaps that's what comes of a vocation that requires constant interaction and conversation - I have now found my refuge in quiet.

We live in a time when more teenagers are having sex than aren't and girls believe that the only way they can be loved is if they are hot enough and self-worth is wrapped up in money and appearance and what they're willing to do, and most days it breaks my heart. Sometimes it feels like too much. And that's why I find my solace in solitude. In these moments of peaceful silence on my back porch chair, hearing the sound of my neighbors laughing and the washing machine running, with the sun shining in my eyes and the tree branches rustling in the breeze, I find, once again, the Hope that everything is going to turn out okay in the end.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

I got glasses and a Christmas tree.

The tree is tiny but festive.
The glasses are new.
In the past two days I have been told (by some of my favorite 14 and 15 year olds) that I look like the following: a librarian, a professor, a lawyer, and (my favorite) a genius.





(I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!)

Thursday, November 25, 2010

the very cliche "what I'm thankful for" post

Today is (apparently) the day when you are supposed to reflect on all the things for which you are thankful. I attempt to do this everyday, because I have been extraordinarily blessed. However, sometimes I fail, and since today is a whole day specifically set aside for being thankful (and for eating...let's be real.) here it is: my 2010 thankful list.

1. My family.
2. My friends.


3. Having a wonderful roommate (who also happens to be a wonderful friend).

4. My education.

5. My job.

6. My health.

7. That my body has zero aversion to gluten or dairy allowing me to chow down on bread and cheese daily.

8. That God is on my team. He's the captain and the coach and all of the teammates. He's got it all under control, and for that, I am the most thankful of all.

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

life moves.

I sit at my kitchen table and look out the window at my right at the bare trees and the quickly fading blue of the winter sky. Alexi Murdoch sings me into the kitchen as I start making (yet another) dinner for one.

Life moves on.

It moves in the quiet moments - in the trips to the mailbox and the coupon clipping and the grocery list making. It moves in your roommates 25th birthday and the beginning of another basketball season. Moments pass and life moves.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Pride and Prejudice makes my heart happy.

My Saturday evening:

- sweats
- hot chocolate
- this wonderful movie

I am truly in need of nothing else...


...(although, I wouldn't mind having a Mr. Darcy of my own).

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Autumn in Colorado.

I love autumn. (If you know me at all and especially if you read this blog, you probably already know that but it doesn't hurt to say it again.) When I lived in California, the most depressing time of the year for me was right around the end of September/beginning of October because everything. stayed. the. same. I was anticipating cooler weather and changing colors and an excuse to wear sweaters and boots and cozy jackets. Instead all I got was (yet another) 75 degree day. (I realize that many will scoff at me for complaining about continuous 75 degree days, but I like variety in my weather, dang it!)

But I'm no longer in California and I am once again getting to experience the wonder of Colorado fall.

My heart is happy.

In other news, I have started a new job (again) that I am loving. I feel so blessed and happy to have finally found a direction and purpose for my life, and I love that I like going to work every day. The one downside of the job is that I took a cut in hours from my last job, but it is worth it to have my happiness restored.

Here's a picture of the fam and me in the mountains recently:


Life is good.